So my personality is one that is more or less "calculated." I obsess over unnecessary details except I often miss or overlook other details that would be obvious to the regular person. You could say that I'm a hot mess, especially to live with or even be friends. I don't plan to be the way I am, it just happens. I am all over the place, I succeed and fail with everything all at once...
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To begin my story I will have to start at a point that I am quite sure is as random as I am. I was at the Cincinnati airport Sunday morning ready for a flight home to Utah. Unfortunately, I had made the mistake of flying standby! This was a bad choice or at least for the unplanned events that I had encountered. You see there was a bad storm on the east coast which had affected the rest of the countries standby availabilities due to the overload of displaced passengers. Yep! You guessed it, I was bumped...and bumped...and bumped......(you get it). I couldn't get on any flight!
At the airport I had exhausted all of my resources to get on any plane! I was PISSED! I call my loving sister up. (She was the reason I was in Cincinnati) I am just fuming, railing off my frustration. Oh and if I didn't get back to Utah by Monday night I would get in trouble with my work. Calmly she apologizes for my disappointing circumstances and offers condolences. What she said next has came to define who I am today. I often reflect on that wisdom in awe. She told me, "Ricky, I am just like you. I MAKE things happen. I set the goal in my mind and there really isn't an option for failure. Whats crazy is that it works!" I am still on fire and am giving my best effort to let her talk. She continues after a few frustrated remarks from me. She explains how she had been looking for a house to move into with no avail. Her own frustration was through the roof. She said that she had prayed and prayed for a house to find... Nothing. Every house was gone before she could snag it up.
Now I should pass on credit to my awesome brother in law for his council to my sister. He told her, "Maybe God doesn't want us to live here." WHAT!?!?!?! When she told me that, it literally stopped me in my tracks. Again, What?! I've never considered that! Every decision that I make, even if I also pray, is my own choice/plan and I execute it. How can God be God and make me have a bad day? Well I have come to understand that he isn't causing my bad day. IT'S ME! It is my fault for not listening to those quiet words that he whispers to your heart. So why would this even come up in my life, let alone attribute the experience to a divine intervention? It is because I have ADD, not the boxed up stereotype of someone pawning their mistakes off on something to avoid punishment. It is severe and it dominates 100% of my life, for the good and bad. I miss the mark A LOT. Yet, to some I am considered brilliant or above average. Does that help me cope? ...Nope! What it comes down to, I am different. Anyway you can define me there is an Oddness about me and I hate that!
So after I had to have my sister pick me up from the airport and wait for the flight the following day, we talked a lot about the reasons behind this event. Our synopsis is that God needed me to WAKE UP! There was something that I had to realize, I needed to change. I needed to truly discover myself. Did it happen over night? Nope! Has it happened yet, 16 months later? No, but I will say that I am far from where I was and far from where I am going. Though, I am excited for what is in store! And to explain what has happened since then and document the process from here on out! Sit back and be ready for the most interesting and random stories you've ever heard.
